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December 2008
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01:51:41 - Dec 31 2008
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Sleep :)
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Dreams and but's... (not dreams of butts)
22:31:48 - Dec 20 2008
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I have had many, many dreams through out my life, as im sure most people with an kind of stimulated mind must have. A number of them have stuck with me. I find the ones with a strong, intense emotion, or memory/picture that accompanied them are more prominent in my mind.
I talk a lot in my sleep. i've woken myself up hearing the end of my sentence or being in the middle of one. I've heard mself crying out or screaming. Almost every morning my boyfriend will tell me of my nightly conversations and out bursts (usually with amusement in his voice).
Agreably, sleeping used to be my hide away. Oh yes. Just close your eyes, let your mind flow away as your body prepares for temporary coma. Lovely. Sadly, recently, sleeping is just as bad as being awake. I dream of things that are way too close to reality to be any kind of a world seperate from this one. I just want to get away even if it is for twenty minutes right before my alarm goes off.
It begs me to wonder if this is a good thing or not. Does the merging of my two worlds mean i am coming face to face with everything?? Is it really a good thing when your consciousness and and imagination become one??? Or is that when mental illness steps in???
A part of me hopes it is the latter.
The only thing that drives me crazy, giving me a feeling of panic is not having an out. No way of escaping. This is exactly what is happening. I have stopped the biggest two of my bad habits and have stopped being able to do two of the only things that ever really helped me. Where does this leave me???
I feel trapped inside my own head, in this life. I dont know where to go, or what to do. If i jst stay calm and focus things should be okay.
But what if they aren't?
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21:58:43 - Dec 17 2008
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It's my Birthday!
=D
~YaY~
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Vampirewitch39
22:08:21
Dec 17 2008
:)
Sinora
22:40:03
Dec 17 2008